In the past, how many him and her had bring me romance, happiness, stimulation, fantasy, life experience and so on. Years after, if they still willing to be friends, I am sure we will have lot to talk about when we meet again and will chat happily. Because I accepted whatever had happen in the past and keep moving forward, without forgetting the pass. I clearly understand that they created and enriched my past and my pass make who I am today. A strong and happy man. Really like to thank them.

Years after all, I finally met the one who makes me feel special, someone who treasures me. I can be naughty, turn the world upside down or inside out and still be acceptable. Be strong enough to say no to smoking, because doesn’t want to disappoint me. Planning to learn Chinese to understand me more and easier to communicate with me and my family. Ready to move to another country if I want to. After a whole day at work still preparing dinner and wait for me at home. Become a meat eater that cook vegetarian. Appreciate and accept who I am. Over the years has no one has given me more than what I have today (except am family). I can’t help to ask myself, what else can I ask for? I already have a whole world of a person. I am happy and I feel lucky. I am not just in love, I have made a decision. Because I am truely, totally in love.

过去有多少个她与他为我带来过多少浪漫,快乐,刺激,幻想及创伤等等的生活经验.多年以后如果再遇上他们,还是朋友,我肯定我们会聊得很开心.因为我接受过去所发生的一切而往前大步的走着.清楚的明白到他们造就及丰富了我的过去,而我的过去成就了今天坚强,快乐,风雨无阻的我.真的要谢谢他们.

多年以后的现在我终于遇见一个让我觉得特别的人,把我看成宝藏.可以让我挑皮,把整个世界翻转再翻转都义无反顾的接受.可以很坚定的戒烟,因为不想让我失望.为了解我更多,更容易沟通而计划学中文.随时准备迁移他国.工作了一整天还为我准备晚餐,等我放工.成为一个会煮素食的食肉兽.欣赏我的一切,接受我的所有.多年以来从来没有一个人给过我这么多.让我不禁自问,我还能要求什么,我以有了全世界,这个人的全世界.我觉得我很幸运也很幸福.说真的我以无要求.这次不只是爱上了,而是选定了.因为我是真的真的很爱很爱你.

People keep saying: “Too Good To Be True”. I am happy when the first time someone said it to me, but slowly I find out, that is nothing I should feel good about it, cause people don’t believe “Too Good” can be True.

Why cant believe “Too Good” sometime can be TRUE. It just simply true…

Since I will stay in New Zealand for coming 6 months. I think I should have a NZ number, and I find out Vodafone prepay have $15 credit bonus for new prepay customer. $5 come with the sim-card and $10 after completed online customer profile. SOUNDS GOOD doesn’t it? But the problem is the “online customer profile” page never shows out…. EVER! It takes almost forever to load and then it stops loading and stays in the same page at the end. After 2 or 3 times clicking on the “fill out customer profile now” it automatically logs out, so everything back to beginning again. I been trying before Christmas until now. It still the same…. I don’t think is the hosting or my internet connection problem because other pages are loading fast.

I did call “777” for customer services, but they can’t help…  I did send a complaint by email on Christmas day. It might be not a good idea to do that on  Christmas day, but I didn’t ask them to fix immediately. I just hoped they would do something after they Christmas holiday…. But New Year is tomorrow, everything is still the same… Vodafone, you really disappointed me. I hope I have never procured your services previously, but is too late now…. I can’t have my refund. I feel like I am in a Scam….

I have a question for everyone who have reads this; has anyone had the same problem as I do? Or has it only happened to me?

除了外貌，风度，安全感，欲望，好色，幽默，专业知识，智慧，这些都是让男人性感的因素。有风度的男人才会让人更想认识他。能给于安全感的男人让人容易相信，希望靠近或依靠。有欲望的男人才会向上爬。好色而不贪色的男人更懂得享受性福。懂得幽默的男人不会让你觉得沉闷。

女人把皱纹看成岁月的冲击，皱纹在男人面上却是岁月的痕迹及智慧的象征，这正是男人性感的因素之一。为何这般说？岁月的痕迹代表着人生经验的累积，这累积产生智慧。智慧型的男人很难不性感。不然007的男主角为何都不是二十几岁的青春偶像。

大多人觉得肌肉男很好看，但好看并不代表性感。在他们把身体弄湿，脱掉上衣，尝试把牛仔裤扯下一半让你见到他没穿内裤。可能你会觉得他很性感。但这些只在于视觉上的性感。男人正真的性感还要等他把另外一半裤脱下后的临“床”表现。逼近好看跟好吃是两回事。

专业也是男人的性感之一。一个会驾飞机的男人总比一个只会“打飞机“的来得强。只要有一向技能，哪怕修水管的也可以很性感。

男人的性感不限制或不在于外貌。一个五官特出，42寸胸肌，二头肌硬得像石头的男人，如果他总伸手向你要钱。和一个样貌平凡，从修车厂下班回家偶尔会对老婆撒娇的男人。你会觉得谁比较性感？

说一句真话，性感在男人身上其实跟现实是成等号的。

A Man’s Sexy

Other then look, bearing, a sense of security, desire, naughty, humor, professional, wisdom, those all are factors of to make a man sexy. The man who are bearing, people will like to know him more. The man will give a sense of security to people, other will easily believe in him or want to stay close to and rely on. Desire men may have a bright future. A naughty man may know how to enjoy sex more. Humorous men will never let you feel boring.

Wrinkles to woman maybe a kind of impact of ages, the wrinkles on a man’s face is a symbol of wisdom, which is one of the factor that make a man sexy. Why so? Time represents the accumulated of life experience and wisdom. Intelligent man will always sexy. Otherwise the actor of 007 will be teenage.

Most people feel that muscle men are good-looking, but good-looking does not mean sexy. when they wet their body and take off their shirt and pull down their jeans half way and showing you, he don’t have underpants. You may think he is sexy at that time, but its only a look. You will only find out is he really sexy after he take off all of the jeans and experience his “bed” performance. Look good and taste good are always two different things.

Professional is one of the factors to make a man sexy. A man that can fly an airplane is always better than men who only know masturbation. Skilled make a man sexy.

Men’s sexy is not restricted on outlook. A good-looking man with 42-inch breast, strong arm but he is the man who keep asking you for money. And ordinary guys who work in a garage and home with dirty, but a good husband. Who do you think people will call sexy?

I say this by my heard; a man’s sexy is equated to reality.

一直以来我都很想在身上多加几公斤的肌肉，但多年来的努力就连一公斤的肥肉也没增加。朋友都羡慕我的苗条（骨感），我也渐渐的接受了这不能改变的事实，也开始有点为我的骨感而骄傲。少点肥肉，人轻点，走起路也可以快一点。这没什麽不好。但这自爱自恋的想法在一个月前有所改变。

上个月我又去了澳洲。我愿以为春天的清凉只需要一件外套就可以保暖。我高估了自己的保暖能力。结果大部分时间我都不太愿意离开有暖气保护的家。最爱赖在暖暖的床上盖上厚厚的被。最不喜欢就是洗澡，刷牙也成了一种苦刑。香水和脂肪原本是撤不上关系，不过我开始明白为何法国人热爱香水。

以前会想，为何上大号时有人总是会只把裤子脱一半就坐在马桶上。为何不直接脱光光，不是更方便，更舒服吗？我现在终于明白原因何在。在寒冷的洗手间里开着抽风机，光着屁股坐在冷冰冰的厕板上就以经是在孽待自己了。如果当时把窗户开了。当风吹过来时我想连大便也可能会缩回去！这种情况下还要下半身脱光光！我有一千个，一万个不愿意！

看着朋友早上第一件事就是洗澡，在冷风阵阵的咖啡馆的外面享受咖啡畅谈几小时。当时我不得不羡慕他们身上的脂肪。在一个最低温8度，最高温16度中午，我穿着外套，牛仔裤还要把手藏到口袋保暖。却看见有人穿着超短超薄的短裤背心在跑步。我不得不承认有脂肪当保护层是一种幸福。

我想讲：
如果我有多余的脂肪，我可能会更喜欢外出。
如果我有多余的脂肪，我可能就不会讨厌洗澡。
如果我有多余的脂肪，我可能更能享受清晰的海水。
如果我有多余的脂肪，我可能会更帅气。
所以“脂肪”我愿意在我身上开个小小的户口给你，希望你偶尔留下一点点的储蓄。
 
All along, I want to add a few kilograms in body muscle, but after years I not even put on a single kg of weight. Friends are envious of my slender (boney), I have gradually accepted the fact that this can not be changed, I also began to proud to my boney body shape. Less fat, lighter, and even can be faster when walk. That is what I think, not too bad. But the idea of self-love, narcissism in a month ago has changed.

I visited last month Australia. I would like to think that only a jacket can warm me for the cool spring. I overestimate my-self. Results, most of the time I reluctant to leave the house that have heater. The most I like was stay in the bed with covered. Don’t like to bath; tooth-brushing has become a punishment. Perfume and fat are two different things, but I began to understand why the French love perfume.

Before this, I have no idea why people sitting on the toilet with half pant off when stool. Why not take it off, isn’t that will be more convenient or comfortable? I now finally understand why. I am cool toilet with exhaust fan, sitting on the toilet nearly in sin myself. I think, if the window was opened, when the wind blows, my stool may retract to my ass-hole even if it come out half way! Under such circumstances, I will not going to loose my pant more then it need to!

When people told they enjoy taking bathe in the morning or when sit outside of café drinking coffee with friend. At that time, I envy them to have fat. One day, the lower temperature was 8 degrees and the higher temperature was 16 degrees, at noon I was wearing a jacket and jeans, I have to put my hands in my pockets to warm keep it warm. Then saw a guy wearing shorts and light shirt for jogging. I have to admit that when a fatty protective coating is a blessing.

I would like to say:
If I have extra fat, I might prefer to go out more.
If I have extra fat, I might not hate baths.
If I have extra fat, I might enjoy better the beach time.
If I have extra fat, I might be better looking.
Therefore, “fat” I am willing to open a small account to you inside my body; I hope you occasionally leave a little bit of savings in me.

相隔很长的一段时间没有写点东西，终于今天有点时间和心情写写谈谈。 
 
因为本身是处女座的关系所以曾经网上读过一些关于处女座男生的特点。说真的它们把我说得不差，有很多地方都得到我的认同。当然也有本人不太认同的部分，所谓一样米养百样人，不可能同一星座就百分百相同。今天打算分享一点自己和典型处女座男生的不同和相同。 
 
首先处女座男生被说成实际，这可以认同。虽然我也有反常和不实际的时候，但大部分时候我都是很实际的。 至于被说我们的感情世界不会是激情浪漫，这倒不一定。最少我觉得我有时会很浪漫啊。还有，如果没有经验过我们在房里的激情就别说我们不会！ 
 
对于被说我们的感情必须是慢慢累积，有明确出发点，深具同情心，追求爱情时表现自私。我都认同啦。因为用时间累积的感情更真实。明确出发点比盲目好。有同情心比冷血棒。对爱情自私一点有什麽不妥？这事情谁不自私啊？谁想跟别人分一半？ 
 
受过感情创伤的处女座男生会倍加小心，很难再被敲开心门。。。那要看由谁来敲和怎麽敲咯，不过倍加小心是肯定的。 
 
无可否认我们都很挑剔。就算买菜也要选吧！何况是人！ 
 
我有点洁僻倾向肯定不会严重，只要不是过分邋遢我是能接收。因为我也相当邋遢。只是我要确定我能找到我想要的东西，不然我可会捉狂。
 
有点吹毛求疵和喜欢批评是因为我们有要求嘛，而且多是客观和准确的。 
 
和一个无知，不经大脑又粗心大意的人一起有人会不气吗？ 美丽的头脑当然要比美丽的脸蛋重要的多。 
 
对于处女座男生的爱火一旦真正被点燃，将会烧得很久很久，甚至一辈子。我没什麽可说的，因为我的一辈子还长着，不过肯定会维持很久很久。但别忘了肯定性的重点是[一旦真正被点燃]，因为通常很难被烧起来。
 
 我们有计划和诚恳有什麽不好？那不都是为了大家好吗！ 
 
嫁给处女座男生有很多优点。我们爱整洁，不会乱发脾气，不会到处留情，细心，踏实，勤劳，体贴，记性很好（不会忘记你的生日，或是结婚纪念日），愿意帮你的忙，给你很好的建议，只是偶尔唠叨琐碎啦。 
 
我们不表现的像个醋坛子（就算占有欲很强）。如果感情里没有忠实和信任，你说那还能有什麽？ 
 
该斩断的情缘就因该干净俐落。拖拖拉拉的只会伤更久，所谓长痛不如短痛。 
 
处女座爸爸会是责任感而且有耐性的父亲。严格不都是希望以后过得好一点。我对自己的要求比对别人多。 
 
反正一句话，处女座男生好处很多！

Virgo boys

sure there will have some mistake for my English… apologize first lol. will be nice if anyone like to help me to correct it. Thanks!

Apart for a long time without something, and finally today have time to talk and write.

Because Virgo is my horoscope so had read about Virgo boys’ characteristics online. It’s really not too bad and I have to agree many things they talk about and sure there are things I not agree. People are different, the same constellation will not be 100% the same personality. Today I intent to share something about typical Virgo boys and the different of my though.

First I recognized Virgo boys were described as practical. I am sometime un-realistic but still realistic most of time.
 
As some people said we are not romantic and passion, that is not right. At least I think I am romance. Also, if you had never experience the time with us in bedroom, don’t say we are not passion! (hahahaha)

For those said our relationship must be slowly accumulated, have clear starting point, compassion, selfish when come to love. I agree about it, but I have things to say. More time to build a relationship is more true feelings. Have clear starting point is better then blindly believes. Compassion is batter then cold-blood. What wrong to be selfish when come to love? How many men out there willing to share his lover with other?

With the emotional trauma’s Virgo boys will be more careful, it is very difficult to open they heart again… It depends on who and how they knockout my heart lol, but for sure will be more careful.

Undeniably we are very picky. We even try to select better vegetables when we shop for it! What wrong to be picky since we are looking for a person to be with for lifetime?

I like clean, but not over. I just have to make sure I can find what I want, otherwise I get crazy.
 
Criticized because I wan to make thing better, and most of time it is objective and accurate.

Would ignorance, carelessness person drive you crazy and mad?

Beautiful inside is always important then beautiful outside.

Other said; When Virgo boys really fall in love, they will love you for a long, long time, even a lifetime. I have no comment about it, because I am still way too far before end of my life, but it’s true, we can love someone for a long time, but we are not easy to fall in love.

What wrong to have plan and sincerely? Isn’t it is good for both?

That is many advantages to married a Virgo boy. We like to be clean, will not angry to you with no reason, pragmatic, hard-working, considerate, good memory (will not forget your birthday or wedding anniversary), willing to help you, give you good recommendations time to time, only occasionally nagging for some thing trivial sometime lol.

We maybe not show our jealous on our face but we are strong cravings inside. What will leave if a relationship with no faithful and trust?

We will cut off the relationship fast when we decide to end it, cause we believe procrastination will only injury longer. It is better to cut short the suffering.

Virgo father is the father of a sense of responsibility and patience. Strict because we hope everyone have better future. What we request for our-self is far more than others.

Anyways, just have to say; Virgo boy havd many ADVANTAGES!

关于我的恋情很少让人知道，也不太喜欢公告天下。畢竟这是两个人的事。尤其在我还不认为彼此的感情已稳定得刮风雷劈也分不开，就更觉得没有公布的必要。所以如果我大事公告我的感情时，很可能我已在安排婚礼了。不过今天算是破例啦。
 
不是我臭美，一直以来身边对我有好感的女生不少，男生更多。但我的第一份情人节礼物既然让我等上了二十七年。之前的日子是否有人陪过情人节，我记不清楚，但我肯定那是我收的第一份情人节礼物。
 
我的第一份情人节礼物。是M送的。M是这些年来第三位被我认定的伴侣。M不送我领带，钢笔或古龙水，偏偏送我毛公仔，还要加上一张卡说我超性感。真不知道是真心卖给我还是卖给自己。不过只要是M送的, 我都喜欢。我觉得这情人节最有意思了。
 
原本说好M会跟我到国外，所以我走得很潇洒。不过M最后还是觉得不想离开，所以我回来了。可惜这感情在我回来后没维持几个星期就宣告落幕。不是因为吵架更没有发生不愉快的事。原因嘛，我不想说也不会说，反正我们最后没有在一起就是了。
 
现在想起M的感觉有点甜，有点酸还有点痛。就像满口的蛀牙还不停地往嘴里塞甜食。舌头告诉你很甜，牙齿说很酸，骨子里确痛得整个人发抖。
 
没几个人知道我回来的真正原因，今天算是公开了。虽然如此，大家想问的问题，我并没有打算回答。是兄弟或是朋友的話就别问。反正我是熬过去了…

男人在还没恋爱前大多都很能吃苦，享受孤独而且懂得照顾自己。但一旦他们谈起恋爱就会变得笨笨的，有点邋遢，变得爱撒娇，而且即使不累，也说自己累。我们真的变笨变懒了吗？答案因该是NO. 我们只是喜欢被另一半唠叨自己的邋遢。看见另一半担心和焦急的神态是一种幸福。有个人陪着吃饭，看着自己想小孩一样狼吞虎咽是一种享受。温柔的按摩是人生一大乐事。我们没有变笨，我们只是爱上装笨。
 
很多时候我们都被说成花心，其实我们只是有点贪心。美丽好看的东西谁不想多看几眼？这是我们的想法。是否要占为己有，我们不一定会去想。男人就是爱吹，到底有多少个真的有哪个胆我们心里明白。 
 
我们付出的不太会告诉你，对于另一半给于我们的，我们会放在心里。花言巧语通常都是骗语。我们的爱就像地低的熔岩，谁能从表面看出它的温度？它有多热还是已经冷却就只有自己清楚。 
 
大男人，小男人都是男人。只要他们是爱你的，他们都会变成小孩子。你只需闲来无事逗逗他们，他们什麽都会听你的。原因很简单，装笨装久了就会真的变笨咯！

I can’t sleep in the midnight, cause I think about you
I don’t wake-up in the morning, cause I’d dream about you
Wherever you go please take me through
My priority is you, will I be your
 
I want to hug you tight, feel your breath
I want to sleep at your side, waiting for your kiss
Time passing by, I’ll keep this love so warm
This is what I to do, my love for you
 
I will across the mountain just to see your face
I can swear to the river, will love you this way
Forever ever you have a space in me
This is what I promise, my love fore you
 
It can be sweet at sometime, sour maybe next
You make me up to the heaven, and make me down so bad
If one day I lost you, how can I stay a live?
I might be crazy, I might be dying
 
We like sit side by side, look at the rainbow on the sky
We like spending sometime, lie on the beach for sunshine
Day time and midnight, to have you be my side
If you want to marry, will you be mine

Pertemuan pertama
Telah memutuskan
Nak kasi kebahagian
Tabi kau ada orang yang bercinta
Bukanla aku
 
Ada kau tahu
Aku mashi harab
Di sisi mu
Menjadi kawan
Menjagai mu
Tanggungjawab aku
 
Bercintakan mu
Tamba alas an
Tak boleh mengawa
Sekalipun aku bukan kau yang cinta
 
Bercintakan mu
Ada kau tahu
Perrindu ku setiap hari saat
Tak belah berhenti

以前每当有人问我年纪时我都爱说“你猜猜看”。每当他们说我看来像十八或二十一岁时我都会很高兴的回答；我二十四了。但慢慢的我就不再喜欢玩这游戏了。这并非他们开始从我的容颜估计到我的年龄，而是我年纪真的大了。现在他们猜我二十四，我也不再拥有任何兴奋的感觉，因为我很清楚的知道我快要三十了。岁月渐渐的浮现在我的生活里。曾经的轻狂，随性，打不死的精神也随着时间流失。更明白到成熟原来是为了拥有更多的安全感。了解到为何大家都希望有个伴。

我相信九十%的人都有想过；如果青春可以找回那该多好。但这偏偏就不可能。就算今时今日的整容手术再好也只能改变样貌上的年纪，打羊胎素也不可能让人的心灵再度恢复青春。经历的事多了，必然就会想得更多，考虑得更小心，负担更重，这就是岁月真正的冲击。

如果岁月可以要回来，再选择一次。你会做不一样的决定吗？我想我不会改变当时的决定。虽然过去并非每个决定都是对的，但这些决定确确实实的成就了今天的我。虽然今天的我没什麽值得炫耀的，但最少我日子过得还好。没有多余的钱，但总算三餐温饱。有压力，但不至于有心脏病。没有华丽的洋房和汽车，却没缺少交心的朋友。如果刚才你是想选择做不一样的决定的话，不妨再考虑清楚。毕竟有些事情需要经历过才会懂。

爱，一个看来简单,其实内里复杂的东西。它可以从三言两语开始，沉沦在海誓山盟的过程，然后结束得的让人痛不欲生。虽然如此，大家仍然朝思暮想能想遇见它。每天几百万人在街上走动，擦肩而过的不计其数，要找到一份爱有多难？告诉你，很难很难。

要在擦肩而过的人群中遇见一个看得上眼的，是第一个难。要他也注意到你是第二难。开口对他说第一句话希望可以认识对方更难。连闯外表的三关过后，还有里面内在的难题需要了解。首先要有话题才能开始沟通，从中知道多一点关于对方的事情。这时候需要考虑的情况更多。双方的生活习惯，个性，处事，目标种种的事情。都要一一的过关。最后觉得这个人不错，想进一步发展时，既然得到的答案是；对不起你不是我的那一杯茶。或更让你觉得无奈的，他既然只喜欢性别与你不一样的，那时候你才真的要叹惜；我真倒霉，为什麽这珍品没有留我一份。事情往往就是这样，你爱的那个不爱你，爱你的那个你不爱。就是那么的犯贱，不断的甩人，被人甩。还是没有找到一个可以学聪明一点的方法。 现在你说爱难不难。

寻找爱情的人往往会像发送求职信件般，把一堆的求职信一口气发出去，务求来个渔翁撒网.当没有音讯时会懊恼是否自己条件不好。当回应多了又会因为过于忙碌在回复而搞得个精神分裂。EQ低的更糟。有的会把已经婉绝的拿去跟已经接收的来个比较。这种天平式的爱情，会让对方吃下不少苦头，而且自己也不好受。对于这类人，我很想劝一句；要学会把已经错过的东西忘掉，然后才可以好好的享受现在。

在爱的世界里除了找寻者，还有追随者.而追随单方面爱情的人。除非你真的看得开，要不你就是”最”犯,贱，的种类。总是自认伟大,觉得对方开心一切就好。只要可以一直在他身边守护，陪伴，感觉上就是梦想实现。说这笨话的人，我告诉你别自欺欺人。除非在过程中你变心，要不然当有一天他忽然告诉你，他已经找到真爱，而且打算结婚时。心里的那种刺痛，会让你想把整颗心挖出来丢掉。再不断的臭骂自己，笨得连头炉都不如。所以爱，除了要寻找，还要懂得真真的放手。

找到了一个你爱的人，同时他也爱你的话，那真是值得恭喜。但如果希望感情相童话故事里时常出现的那一句；永远幸福，快乐的生活在一起。就要必备一些条件。人总是希望身边的那个爱你比你爱他多一点点。这很难。一个蛋糕如果平分倒是可以，但每个人都希望多拿一点，是不可能的。这数学题很简单，不用太多的解释我想大家都懂。所以在这时最好埋没你的数学天分，把你的付出和他的给予，统统捞在一起。让自己再也分不清，拉不开。那你还有一丝的可能会觉得他是爱你多一点的。

我很赞同别人所说的，爱情这东西，没时闲， 有时烦。我这人没什麽特别，所以我也是属于自寻烦恼的一群。期待着爱情带来的折磨。被爱情搞的头晕脑涨，要死要活，总比闲的该死不活来的好。

有一种人会耗尽一生的时间追求梦想，
但却在还没实现之前就离开了。

也有一种人放弃了所谓的理想的过活，
最后忘了为何而活。

我尝试在两者之间寻找平衡点。
因为平淡的幸福久了会让我迷惘。
长期的追求会让身心疲惫。
年长了，也懂了，现实就是生活。