People keep saying: “Too Good To Be True”. I am happy when the first time someone said it to me, but slowly I find out, that is nothing I should feel good about it, cause people don’t believe “Too Good” can be True.

Why cant believe “Too Good” sometime can be TRUE. It just simply true…

Since I will stay in New Zealand for coming 6 months. I think I should have a NZ number, and I find out Vodafone prepay have $15 credit bonus for new prepay customer. $5 come with the sim-card and $10 after completed online customer profile. SOUNDS GOOD doesn’t it? But the problem is the “online customer profile” page never shows out…. EVER! It takes almost forever to load and then it stops loading and stays in the same page at the end. After 2 or 3 times clicking on the “fill out customer profile now” it automatically logs out, so everything back to beginning again. I been trying before Christmas until now. It still the same…. I don’t think is the hosting or my internet connection problem because other pages are loading fast.

I did call “777” for customer services, but they can’t help…  I did send a complaint by email on Christmas day. It might be not a good idea to do that on  Christmas day, but I didn’t ask them to fix immediately. I just hoped they would do something after they Christmas holiday…. But New Year is tomorrow, everything is still the same… Vodafone, you really disappointed me. I hope I have never procured your services previously, but is too late now…. I can’t have my refund. I feel like I am in a Scam….

I have a question for everyone who have reads this; has anyone had the same problem as I do? Or has it only happened to me?

I have a habit; I collect postcard, flyer or brochure. It is not my hobby but my habit for work. I had a collection not long ago ”Think Again”, it is about the different of HIV+ and HIV- gay man thinking. The cover look nice (that is why I pick it up when I first saw it) and I like it because the information starts with a story of Bill and Ben.

bill’s story.
I met the most gorgeous man last night. Ben. He was so cute. And so me! Deep voice. Very butch. Eyes that looked right into you. Smart eyes. He was intelligent – not the “cute but dumb” type I usually fall for. The chemistry was electric. Anyway I was pretty sure we were going to spend the night together. I was really interested in Ben. A friend of mine had found out they were HIV-positive that day. He’s only twenty-five. So I guess it was on my mind – and so I talked about it. Don’t think about HIV a lot normally. Ten minutes later he had to go… I don’t know what I did wrong.

ben’s story
Bill is really cute. He is a good friend of this guy Robert I work with – but he doesn’t know that. Robert is a real gossip. So I haven’t told Robert that I have HIV. I don’t think my work needs to know. So when Ben started talking about HIV I know he was going to ask… If he did I was going to say, “It’s a secret”. But I know if it went any further I’d have to tell. I guess I panicked and fled. It was easiest not to deal with it.

You can download the brochure online by going to: http://www.thinkagain.com.au/camp.htm

PS: if one day I want to write a gay man love story, maybe a good idea to complete story of Bill and Ben. :p

除了外貌，风度，安全感，欲望，好色，幽默，专业知识，智慧，这些都是让男人性感的因素。有风度的男人才会让人更想认识他。能给于安全感的男人让人容易相信，希望靠近或依靠。有欲望的男人才会向上爬。好色而不贪色的男人更懂得享受性福。懂得幽默的男人不会让你觉得沉闷。

女人把皱纹看成岁月的冲击，皱纹在男人面上却是岁月的痕迹及智慧的象征，这正是男人性感的因素之一。为何这般说？岁月的痕迹代表着人生经验的累积，这累积产生智慧。智慧型的男人很难不性感。不然007的男主角为何都不是二十几岁的青春偶像。

大多人觉得肌肉男很好看，但好看并不代表性感。在他们把身体弄湿，脱掉上衣，尝试把牛仔裤扯下一半让你见到他没穿内裤。可能你会觉得他很性感。但这些只在于视觉上的性感。男人正真的性感还要等他把另外一半裤脱下后的临“床”表现。逼近好看跟好吃是两回事。

专业也是男人的性感之一。一个会驾飞机的男人总比一个只会“打飞机“的来得强。只要有一向技能，哪怕修水管的也可以很性感。

男人的性感不限制或不在于外貌。一个五官特出，42寸胸肌，二头肌硬得像石头的男人，如果他总伸手向你要钱。和一个样貌平凡，从修车厂下班回家偶尔会对老婆撒娇的男人。你会觉得谁比较性感？

说一句真话，性感在男人身上其实跟现实是成等号的。

A Man’s Sexy

Other then look, bearing, a sense of security, desire, naughty, humor, professional, wisdom, those all are factors of to make a man sexy. The man who are bearing, people will like to know him more. The man will give a sense of security to people, other will easily believe in him or want to stay close to and rely on. Desire men may have a bright future. A naughty man may know how to enjoy sex more. Humorous men will never let you feel boring.

Wrinkles to woman maybe a kind of impact of ages, the wrinkles on a man’s face is a symbol of wisdom, which is one of the factor that make a man sexy. Why so? Time represents the accumulated of life experience and wisdom. Intelligent man will always sexy. Otherwise the actor of 007 will be teenage.

Most people feel that muscle men are good-looking, but good-looking does not mean sexy. when they wet their body and take off their shirt and pull down their jeans half way and showing you, he don’t have underpants. You may think he is sexy at that time, but its only a look. You will only find out is he really sexy after he take off all of the jeans and experience his “bed” performance. Look good and taste good are always two different things.

Professional is one of the factors to make a man sexy. A man that can fly an airplane is always better than men who only know masturbation. Skilled make a man sexy.

Men’s sexy is not restricted on outlook. A good-looking man with 42-inch breast, strong arm but he is the man who keep asking you for money. And ordinary guys who work in a garage and home with dirty, but a good husband. Who do you think people will call sexy?

I say this by my heard; a man’s sexy is equated to reality.

一直以来我都很想在身上多加几公斤的肌肉，但多年来的努力就连一公斤的肥肉也没增加。朋友都羡慕我的苗条（骨感），我也渐渐的接受了这不能改变的事实，也开始有点为我的骨感而骄傲。少点肥肉，人轻点，走起路也可以快一点。这没什麽不好。但这自爱自恋的想法在一个月前有所改变。

上个月我又去了澳洲。我愿以为春天的清凉只需要一件外套就可以保暖。我高估了自己的保暖能力。结果大部分时间我都不太愿意离开有暖气保护的家。最爱赖在暖暖的床上盖上厚厚的被。最不喜欢就是洗澡，刷牙也成了一种苦刑。香水和脂肪原本是撤不上关系，不过我开始明白为何法国人热爱香水。

以前会想，为何上大号时有人总是会只把裤子脱一半就坐在马桶上。为何不直接脱光光，不是更方便，更舒服吗？我现在终于明白原因何在。在寒冷的洗手间里开着抽风机，光着屁股坐在冷冰冰的厕板上就以经是在孽待自己了。如果当时把窗户开了。当风吹过来时我想连大便也可能会缩回去！这种情况下还要下半身脱光光！我有一千个，一万个不愿意！

看着朋友早上第一件事就是洗澡，在冷风阵阵的咖啡馆的外面享受咖啡畅谈几小时。当时我不得不羡慕他们身上的脂肪。在一个最低温8度，最高温16度中午，我穿着外套，牛仔裤还要把手藏到口袋保暖。却看见有人穿着超短超薄的短裤背心在跑步。我不得不承认有脂肪当保护层是一种幸福。

我想讲：
如果我有多余的脂肪，我可能会更喜欢外出。
如果我有多余的脂肪，我可能就不会讨厌洗澡。
如果我有多余的脂肪，我可能更能享受清晰的海水。
如果我有多余的脂肪，我可能会更帅气。
所以“脂肪”我愿意在我身上开个小小的户口给你，希望你偶尔留下一点点的储蓄。
 
All along, I want to add a few kilograms in body muscle, but after years I not even put on a single kg of weight. Friends are envious of my slender (boney), I have gradually accepted the fact that this can not be changed, I also began to proud to my boney body shape. Less fat, lighter, and even can be faster when walk. That is what I think, not too bad. But the idea of self-love, narcissism in a month ago has changed.

I visited last month Australia. I would like to think that only a jacket can warm me for the cool spring. I overestimate my-self. Results, most of the time I reluctant to leave the house that have heater. The most I like was stay in the bed with covered. Don’t like to bath; tooth-brushing has become a punishment. Perfume and fat are two different things, but I began to understand why the French love perfume.

Before this, I have no idea why people sitting on the toilet with half pant off when stool. Why not take it off, isn’t that will be more convenient or comfortable? I now finally understand why. I am cool toilet with exhaust fan, sitting on the toilet nearly in sin myself. I think, if the window was opened, when the wind blows, my stool may retract to my ass-hole even if it come out half way! Under such circumstances, I will not going to loose my pant more then it need to!

When people told they enjoy taking bathe in the morning or when sit outside of café drinking coffee with friend. At that time, I envy them to have fat. One day, the lower temperature was 8 degrees and the higher temperature was 16 degrees, at noon I was wearing a jacket and jeans, I have to put my hands in my pockets to warm keep it warm. Then saw a guy wearing shorts and light shirt for jogging. I have to admit that when a fatty protective coating is a blessing.

I would like to say:
If I have extra fat, I might prefer to go out more.
If I have extra fat, I might not hate baths.
If I have extra fat, I might enjoy better the beach time.
If I have extra fat, I might be better looking.
Therefore, “fat” I am willing to open a small account to you inside my body; I hope you occasionally leave a little bit of savings in me.

the Royal Botanic Garden in Sydney